hmm...
im super sad!!!

aaarrrggghhhh!!!

ok...
i followed my mum n aunt to Raffle's Place...
like i said ytd...
hmm...

went to take train at 9am juz now...
he wasn't there...
i so sad....

i really want to see him...
ytd Nora smsed me...
she sae "ifah i saw ur panda eye..."
very bad seh she...
hmm...

so i asked her where she is...
she was wif Afiq...
a guy that likes her...
at Yishun MRT Station...
waiting for him to take the train home...

then a while later she sae "ur eye candy like to talk ah...over frenly ah..."
my heart automatically like pounding really hard seh...
u noe wat i was thinking...
i thought he talked to Nora or Afiq seh...
i really thought tat u noe...

then Nora sae "no...each time i saw him...he talk to someone"
then i start thinking again...
who seh...
so i ask..."to who?a staff?"
then she sae yes...
i was like...FUH!!!

haha...
siao seh me...

aft going to Raffle's Place wif mum n aunties...
we went to AMK for a while...
then we went to grandma hse...

aft a while...
i beg mum to go home at 5pm n take the train...
she sae ok wif an angry face...
haha...

so we did...
but its not 5 yet...
we reach Yishun at 4.45pm...
so...
he wasnt there...

i was really angry leh...
sad too...
but i juz kept quiet...
lucky no one make me angry at tat point of time...
if not...
they will be my target of throwing my tantrum...

hmm...
so sad...

i feel tat it is so weird...
i mean...
how can someone i barely noe...
makes a lot of difference in myself...
give me a lot of different feelings...
makes me put a lot of different expression on my face...
n put my heart beating at many kinds of speed...

is this really love...
or is this wat Nora sae...
lust?

me myself don have the answer...
i hope someone noes the answer...

is it really possible???
is it really possible tat he is my destined partner?
my soulmate?

its not tat easy rite...
so i guess he is not...
so i guess he is not mine...
so i guess i am not his...
so i guess...
im giving up...