wow...
my legs hurts!!!
awww!!!
today part of DBA 10 went to do CIP
at MINDS CTDC...
so damn tired ah...
but what i had experience today...
was much more important than what i felt now...
it was such a great experience in some ways...
firstly...
when we came...
we were briefed by Mdm Syamsiah...
then...
we went for a looooonnnnnggggg walk....
it was really looooonnnnnggggg ok...
coz ah...
we walk from Clementi all the way to Jurong East...
can u like believe it...
wow!!!
hmm...
when i was going to clementi...
in the bus...
i look at the mrt platform...
n saw him...
hmm...
u see...
i look at him too much...
until from far can identify him...
haha...
then i went up the platform...
stand at my usual place...
n didnt saw him...
coz he is hiding...
haha
lol!!!
he was standing at the lift there...
n the notice board block my view...
haha...
so i waited for him to move...
n he did...
n i tink he saw me...
haha...
then the Do Not Board train came...
n...
he went to my area there to went inside the train...
omg...
my heart cant stop racing...
i tried not to look at him...
really...
i did try...
but this eyes of mine juz wanna see that panda eyes of his...
haha...
so cute ah...
lol...
serious leh...
i did look away...
but then my eyes suddenly move to his direction...
i was like...
shit!!!
then i went home...
thought he don have...
n surprisingly...
there he was...
waiting for me...
haha
LOL!!!
as if...
he work 2 shifts seh...
i tink he cover for another staff...
hardworking huh...
no wonder he got panda eyes...
tats prove of his hardworkingness ok...
hmm...
somehow...
i feel like he didnt notice me...
i mean...
he dont even noe i exist...
or he noe i exist but he dont care at all...
n i am super duper sure that...
he dont like me...
i am so sure...
i have never been more sure than this...
u dont have to believe what i have been saying all tis while ok...
dont believe whenever i sae he was looking at me...
or something like tat...
which shows tat he notice me...
coz...
like my mum said...
it was juz my imagination..
tat is wat i want to see n happen...
i may be exaggerating all tis while...
i am so sorry if i ever did tat...
i am sorry for myself too...
i feel so pathetic...
u noe y i sae all tis...
coz...
like i told chihoon...
if u like a girl or guy...
u will usually keep looking at him or her rite?
like wat im doing all tis while..
but he???
hmm...
i have to admit...
he dont really look at me...
i mean...
he dont seem to care if i alrd alight the train...
ok...
im being too emotional!!!
urgh!
SARIFAH BINTE RAHMAT!!!
THIS IS ONLY YOUR CRUSH!!!
FOR GOD SAKE!!!
YOU GOT TO FORGET HIM!!!
YOU REALLY HAVE TO!!!
GET IT IN YOUR HEAD!!!
DO YOU THINK IN YOUR RIGHT MIND HE LIKES YOU???
NO HE DON'T!!!
HE WILL NEVER WILL...
THERE ARE SO MANY LADIES HE CAN CHOOSE...
WHY DO YOU THINK HE WILL CHOOSE YOU???
HE WILL NEVER WILL...
AND EVEN IF HE DOES CHOOSE YOU,WHICH WILL NEVER HAPPEN,YOUR MUM DOES NOT ALLOWED IT OK...
SO...
I BETTER FORGET HIM...