woke up early in the morning today and tried to do the website thing.guess what?i did it.i mean i successfully did my part of the project.but i still have my worries.*sigh*.this week is so hectic.have so many projects to do.so many test and exams to think about.and on top of all that i have a 'student' waiting for me to be taught.haha.don't get me wrong.i am excited to be teaching someone.hehe.will be my first and maybe not the last.

had a chat with Sis Emma in the morning(after finishing the website thing).we talked and talked and somehow the conversation was about our family members.when i listen or specifically see Sis Emma's stories,i realise one thing.our family don't have any unity.we may seem quite happy together,but in reality,in depth,we are not.we really prove that we cannot judge a book by its cover.i am quite sad and disappointed.ok i just want to point out,Sis Emma,it is not only about you i'm writing about.it is also about myself.i am disappointed in myself for having negative feelings for my family.i have some problems understanding what some of my family members' want or what their intentions are.same like what Sis Emma is going through.i wonder why these feelings exist.is it because of selfishness?because we want to be the best in everything?or in other words,because we are jealous?*sigh*.

i just hope,hope that everything that the outsider sees,is the truth.please don't make my family have any conflicts anymore.im sick of being separated from my family.it was because of that one separation that change my relationship with the others.and now it took me ages to fill the gaps between us again.i have had enough.i don't want anybody to be hurt anymore.i just hope i can be blind towards all the chaotic things that is happening around my family.*deep sigh*