i hate this feeling in my heart.when i read what i read,it just makes my heart super heavy.i feel like crying.i wonder why i am feeling this way.i know what i want won't happen but i still keep hoping it will happen which doesn't make sense.i think my brain is malfunctioning.i should really stay away from guys so that my feelings won't go overboard.GOD!!!i seriously hate this feelings right now.if what i read is the truth,i just hope he will be happy always.wow i think i am seriously like GG the actress in He Is Just Not That Into You.seriously i think i am.*sigh* when will i meet my one true love?first of all is there such thing as true love?

i am seriously down today.meeting sis just make it worse.i am so jealous of her can?why is it that whenever i go out with her,i feel like i am the elder and have a kid one not her?well the answer is obvious isn't it.i wish i could be like her.that is not the only reason i am jealous of her.i realise,everytime she came to my house,mum will always find my faults in everything.and the word 'malas',which is lazy,will never be missed to describe me.i mean i did everything she ask me to but still it wasn't enough for her.i just don't get it.i don't know what she wants anymore.*sigh* i guess i just have to continue pleasing her even when my heart is hurting...