and once again i am.i don't know what's happening.i don't know where he is.it has been one week now.i want to know the truth but i'm afraid of it.i am afraid to face reality.believe me when i say i have tried to think positively.but even the positive way of thinking hurts.i can't go on like this can i?i have been waiting for too long.i don't wish for it to end this way.but what can i do?if it is fated to be like this then thats just it.i don't know how i will cope with all this.

i asked CH and Celeste what is the thing that they don't like about me.Celeste said i am straightforward and that my words are hurting sometimes.i totally didn't expect that.i have never ever thought that i am the straightforward type.and my words are hurting?really ah?i'm sorry if i have ever hurt any of you guys' feelings without me knowing.if i know that my words are hurting then that means it was intentional and i meant to be sarcastic.

everything is such a mess.my house,my life and especially my mind.i have not been keeping track of the date lately.and i forgot that i have to do community service this Sunday.lucky CH brought that up.i don't feel too good either.my body is aching internally.ouh and mum said that there was a fire in Causeway Point just now.and everybody had to go out of the building.hmm.*sigh* my life is super hectic.

ps. please don't go...i beg you,please