what a boring day.he wasn't there in the morning.i should really listen to my gut feeling next time.i had a feeling that he won't be there.but i neglect that feeling.so stupid of me.i really really miss him.its like what,5 days already?hmm.i really need to see him.but hopefully nothing will happen that makes me think and cry.

loving a stranger really sucks.we don't know anything about him/her.and we can only depend on miracle.i realise since i met him,i keep crying,thinking,hoping and sometimes smiling.but i really hope a lot.i really can depend on hope alone and hope a miracle will happen.

is he worth hoping for?is he worth waiting for?is he worth my tears?i sometimes feel my tears will dry up one day.almost everyday i will cry when i think of him.should i just forget about him and move on with my life?what does moving on with my life means actually?

*sigh*.i just can't bear the thought of me forgetting him.can i really forget him?i don't think so.i think it will be so hard for that to happen.forgetting him is like forgetting half of my mind.GOD!!!why did i meet him in the first place.i shouldn't have notice him.it hurt me so damn much!

Ya Allah,
sesungguhnya aku tahu segala yang berlaku ada hikmah disebaliknya.namun aku tidak berdaya untuk meneruskan hidupku dengan dia di ingatanku.namun tidak juga aku berdaya untuk meneruskan hidup tanpa dia di depan mataku.apa yang patut aku lakukan sebenarnya?patutkah aku melupakan dia sahaja atau patutkah aku membuat langkah pertama?aku keliru.aku runsing.berikanlah petunjukmu ya Allah.amin.