why is love so hurtful?love was supposed to be wonderful yet i have witnessed many hearts being broken because of love.including my own.the hearts that were broken came from my family's.why is my family like this?why can't we get the love that my friends get?why is it that my friends' love is so beautiful but ours?are we not meant to have the beautiful love?are we meant only to have the love that is bitter and hurting?all this experiences make me scared to love.what if my love will be hurtful to me too?my families whose heart were broken are the strong ones.i don't think i can be as strong as them.i salute them.

my mum,my sis,my aunt,my uncles and now my cousin.they are strong enough to move on with their lives.their situations are all different but it all came to one,LOVE.they seems strong from the outside.i wonder is it the same inside.i wish i can be like them.strong and courageous.

i know i am still young and all.but i am sure i will go through what they had gone through one day.how will i handle such situations?will i be like them?or will i just broke down?will i ever feel the beautiful love?will i be loved?or will i just love without being loved?how does being loved feels?is it as wonderful as it sounds?being loved can also be hurtful right?