*deep sigh*just now was Economics Exam.what i can say about that is 'DIE'.the paper is so damn difficult for me.hmm.and guess what,in the middle of doing the paper,my mind fly to him.when i realise i was thinking about him i just close my eyes and focus on the paper which i just hate to look at.

tell me i am so stupid.GOD!!!my heart and my mind is just not yet ready to forget him.i was still hoping that he will be there at the platform today,which he is not.i was so super bloody damn disappointed.i just feel like screaming loudly which i obviously can't.so when i reach home actually even before i reach home,tears welled up in my eyes.and i just silent cry.cry without any sounds.just tears flowing out of my eyes.

i think God really wants me to forget him.that is why he wasn't there just now.i want to forget him but i am not prepared yet.if the reason of me meeting him is to make me feel hurt,then it works.i am feeling more than just hurt.it is just hurting to talk about it.i better keep it to myself.my mum still haven't notice the change in me.and just now she talk about him and i just act like i didn't heard her.this blog is the place for me to release what is inside me.but not all.some are better not said...