i admit.i admit that i am a loser...

today is so hurtful for me.my heart is just burning with anger,sadness and regrets.all my feelings are mixed up because of different things.after statistic exam,mum ask to go grandma house.once again they never stop asking me to eat and drink.seriously,can't i just make my own decision whether to eat or not?why must they make a big deal of me not wanting to eat?i was seriously pissed off with my uncle.he offer me a kuih which i never eat.so i said i don't want.then he say,"tunggu mama kau baru kau nak makan?"he said it so harshly.i was really hurt.but i just forget it.i don't want to argue.

then all four of my aunties were there.three of them were at the dining table.another aunty was sitting near me.i seriously have trouble understanding the aunty near me.she told one of my aunties that she made this boiled egg thing,telur pindang or something.then when she came to grandma house,she didn't bring.so my other aunty decided to make at grandma house itself.so they made.so they all gather at the dining table and eat the egg.my cousin,the daughter of my aunty i can't understand,sat beside me and ate the egg.then one of the three aunties who was at the dining table tease the aunty near me.she said,"hmm sedapnye telur ni.kau tak makan ____?"then the aunty near me replied,"tak nak ah.aku tengok pucat je.tak sedap."i was already pissed off by her at that time.i know her attitude so well.then she ask her daughter whether nice or not.then the daughter say "tak sedap ah.macam makan telur biase je"i was like GOD!!!i really can't take it anymore lah.so i said,"tak sedap?pergi lah taruk garam kasi rase masin sane"oh my god seh.i was really angry lah.then i walk off.then i bump into my mum.and she saw my screwed face.i don't know whether my aunties realise i was angry.but i was sure the aunty i was aiming at realise it.whatever ok.i don't care.

i really hate her attitude lah.she can't be teased or criticised.but if she do to others can.wow i was like @*&#&^@^%.i really can't understand her.and i realise her daughter is starting to be like her.GOD!!!i hope i won't quarrel with them like how my cousins once did.i really hope i can tolerate their nonsense.

then mum had to go to work.so i followed her.i ate a dessert and went home.i regret.i regret making that decision.i seriously regret.i almost forget him already and i made a huge mistake just now.a mistake i really really wish i hadn't made.why was i so stupid.i shouldn't have done what i did.if only i could turn back time...


Satu hari CINTA dan KAWAN berjalan-jalan dalam kampung, tetiba CINTA terjatuh dalam telaga,kenapa?Kerana CINTA Itu Buta,lalu KAWAN pun ikut terjun dalam telaga,kenapa?Kerana KAWAN akan buat ape aje demi CINTA. Di dalam telaga,CINTA hilang,kenapa?Kerana CINTA itu mudah hilang kalau tak dijaga,sukar dicari. Sedangkan KAWAN masih lagi tercari-cari di mana CINTA dan terus menunggu, kenapa?Kerana KAWAN itu sejati dan akan kekal sebagai KAWAN yang setia.