just when i almost forget about him,when i don't want to meet him,why did he appear before me?i make myself believe that he won't be there.but instead the opposite happen.my heart just hurt to see him right infront of my eyes.i just feel like crying infront of him and tell him everything.i just feel like kneeling infront of him and beg him to do something,to help me.but i was too egoistic.i tried not to look at him but i just couldn't.i found myself searching for him when i was in the train.and i almost cried in the train.

meeting him again is just making me hard to forget about him.but i can't deny that part of my heart was happy,relieved and shocked to see him there.i seriously feel like telling him everything.but my mouth is shut,my legs are glued,my body is stiff.i don't dare to do anything.looking at him from far is already hurting.what will happen if i were to stand infront of him?i know i am not that brave to walk up to him.

but gratefully GOH WEE LIANG did the unexpected.i don't know what will happen if he doesn't have that party.thanx Wee Liang for having that farewell party.you saved my tears.i had great time during the party.instead of tears,laughter fill me.thank you Wee Liang and everybody who helped...

my heart feel so stuffed.i need to let go of something.it is either him or my tears.*deep sigh*.i guess its both.i know i should get a grip of myself.but what to do,i am just a human being with a heart and feelings.a heart that is broken into pieces and a feeling of regrets...